You Me At Six - Hold Me Down

Let me think. What has happened since I las wrote?

1. Awkwardeness between myself and L. has made hanging with that group basically impossible and I'm considering cutting all ties with them.
2. My best friend came for a sleepover and we totally fangirled over Supernatural and All Time Low :)
3. I've been kind of accepted into another group :D
4. I'm failing my 'best' subject beyond belief.
5. I've developed an unhealthy obsession with Fall Out Boy which I am very proud of.
6. I can't seem to stop thinking about S....

Maybe there is just something really wrong with me and I can't see it. Grrrr >.< Why are friendships so friggin hard?

On the bright side, I'm going to start doing some fundraising work with J. for our charity. So I'm becoming more and more involved in the world of charity! It makes me feel really good about myself, which I don't say very often. We came up with a long list of ideas of what to do for our fundraising. Including a catwalk, tombola, dress up day, cake sale and the favourite was to do a car wash; there are lots of problems with doing the last one though. For one thing it would be me, J. and two other volunteers having to do the car washing, and we would have to use buckets of water, making things awkward.

The plan is that if we do decide to do the car washing thing, the four of us will get a couple of friends to help out. And seeing as some of my only friends at the minute are guys.... hehehe :D That would make for an interesting day. Mmmmm.... Just wondering what S. looks like without a shirt on.... Shit! I have to see him tomorrow.... Wow, that will be awkward now I've been thinking about that...

ANYWAY.

Exams are just around the corner and I've not had chance for any revision since Thursday, which is crap. I need to get quite a bit done before my first exam, elsewise I am totally screwed.

Also, my prom dress is here! I love it sooo much and I'm really pleased we decided on the one we did. It's pretty and blue and floor length and is all strappy at the back (not thrilled about that but c'est la vie) and I feel amazing when I wear it! Sadly, I'm worried that on the night, I'll be chilling out in the corner on my own, not being able to socialise with people, which would royally suck ass. I've thought about asking S. to go with me, but he's moving to London soon and I'll miss him so much and if I mess things up I'll hate myself. If I don't do anything though, I'm scared I'll regret it so much... Maybe next time we're alone together, I'll just tell him?

Emily xxx